Staying the course

There are so many things that have happened the past week, I don't even know where to begin. Family health issues, a close call for hubby, work issues. It's a good thing that God is in control and knows where all of this is going, because right now I am definitely not seeing very well. Just as he stilled the storm on Galilee, Jesus will calm this storm.

Mark 4:39-40: "And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? How is it that ye have no faith?"

Oh boy. He could say the same to me this week. The Sunday before things started getting dicey, our church had a guest preacher. The title of his sermon was: "Stay the course."

"Ok," I thought to myself. "So I stick with my current job."

The next day, I was informed things were changing. Hugely. My position isn't gone yet, but they have to figure out how to keep my position without administration deleting it. My responsibilities are changing. As the weeks progressed, and word leaked about the change, other coworkers started asking questions. By Thanksgiving, I was no longer sure I wanted to continue this path.

"Stay the course."

We'll see. I've begun a job search just in case. (Yes, I know, God probably has other plans.)

On the home front, my mother has pending procedures having to do with circulation problems and heart problems. She is quite concerned for her health and the risks involved; I'm more concerned about her spiritual health. We know with her family's history that most likely something is going to happen eventually no matter how hard the doctors try. Life here is not forever. Unfortunately, Mom struggles with her faith. She's been angry at God for a long time. This hurts. This is the woman who taught me how to pray in Jesus' name, got me to vacation bible school, made sure that I knew Jesus. But through the storms of her life, the clouds and the rain and the fog have blurred her vision and shaken her boat.

I just pray that God still has the tow rope and that she realizes who's really steering.

And that I do not lose my faith in the process. The world is watching--maybe not on television, but my family and others around me in my small corner of the world.